2025

ga kayak tahun-tahun sebelumnya, kali ini aku tahun baruan di kamar. (biasanya di balkon rumah haha).

seminggu terakhir hectic banget, jaga malem gaperna istirahat, jaga pagi pasien membludak, akhirnya imun drop.

dari dulu berat naik full time karena tau konsekuensinya, aku kerjanya pelan jadinya lama, ditambah fisik lemah banget, terbukti kan akhirnya sakit (bisa bertahan hidup April-sekarang udah puji Tuhan banget).

emang masalah gaji worthed krn emang dibayar sepadan dengan kerja (ga kayak dulu part-time tp udah kek full-time ahha).

jadi di awal tahun yg indah ini, aku merenung, kayaknya udah cukup waktuku sebagai dokter jaga. berat coy, umur makin tua fisik makin lemah.

I might try another way of living walau masih bingung gmn.

Tapi 3 tahun kerja di RS, dari yg gatau apa-apa sampe sekarang masih gatau apa-apa tapi at least muscle memory bekerja dengan cukup baik, bener-bener mengajarkanku kalo cari duit ga gampang, tapi aku harus tau batas kemampuanku, sebelumnya aku rasa fine-fine aja, tapi seminggu terakhir kek udah limit.

udahlah, mau tidur dulu sakit kepala.

worst holiday ever

 I'm kidding.

it was just the wrong timing.

first, it's my first cuti ever (as a full-timer).

one thing I would be grateful for is that I'm alive.

I might wanted to die most of the time, but at this moment, I'm happy that I arrived safely at home.

Still have one more cuti day, it was raining hard outside.

Need to sleep now, had an online class at 10 am. 

kthxbai

what is love?

 this year, my 2-year-old glasses broke.

That random day, there were loud surroundings in my house, I was super duper cranky because of lack of sleep last night (night shift, you know), and I didn't realize my glasses were on the floor near my bed, and voila.

It was a blurry week because I didn't have any substitute glasses and I was too scared to use contacts (still is). By doing another eye check this year, turned out I had astigmatism. And I was waiting for new glasses.

IT DIDN'T WORK.

I mean, that was my fault for chosing the weird-looking one.

So, second try. glasses #2

I got super excited. the clear transparent one. I bought it online.

IT DIDN'T FIT. TOO BIG FOR MY SMALL HEAD.

But I had no choice, so I had to wear it.

While living a miserable life (ugh), I found very cutesy glasses online, hoping they would replace the big one.

TOO SMALL.

DUDE.

hard to find the right one, exactly like my soulmate.

okay, I have to do the morning shift in the next 5 hours, bye!