10 TAHUN NGEBLOG

Hai. Jadi, hari ini tepat 10 tahun aku mulai ngeblog disini, dan juga 14 tahun aku pertama nulis diary. Yup, hari yang sama, tahun yang berbeda.

Makasih udah jadi teman terbaik yang setia mendengar uneg-uneg di dalam kepalaku yang abstrak ini, bikin aku bahagia dengan ganti-ganti skin, layout, whatever.

Makasih udah membuka wawasanku terhadap banyak orang di luar sana yang super keren. Member RB yang sekarang sukses semua. Keren lah.

Makasih udah menyibukkan waktuku dengan edit about me kinda thing, bikin skin, kenal photoshop, duduk di depan komputer di ruang TV sampe mabok, kangen banget lah.


Ngeblog itu bagi aku adalah vitamin. Semacam semangat untuk tetap sehat. Tipikal orang seperti aku yang overthinking tapi juga pemalu, bikin aku betah ngeblog. bikin aku merasa bahwa inilah media yang tepat untuk berekspresi.


10 tahun ini, berjalan dengan cepat. well, ga juga sih.


dulu, 10 tahun yang lalu, aku masih 14 tahun, kelas 2 SMP, belum jerawatan, masih kurus banget, masih malas makan, udah setahun ga pacaran, hobinya main fs di warnet, baca majalah gadis, main ke gereja atau ke rumah kak oyen. aku dulu juga ga pede-an sih orangnya (and still), pulang pergi sekolah naik angkot dan cibi (semacam angkot kecil di lingkungan sekitar tempat tinggalku di Ulak Karang alias UK, singkatan dari cigak baruak), masih rajin dengerin pro2fm yang beberapa penyiarnya masih kuhafal sampe sekarang, bang maman dan bang ari (lupa yang lain), masih gaptek, belum kenal dunia hollywood, tontonannya cookies sctv dan sinetron rcti, pokoknya intinya: polos.

and then, ten years later...

perempuan, 24 tahun, sekolahnya ga kelar-kelar, jerawatan dan ini bikin super ga pede tapi mager mau hidup sehat, perawatan, ilangin stres. lemak bertebaran dimana-mana, terutama di perut, udah mau delapan tahun ga pacaran, hobinya main gadget, stalking orang, main games, tidur, ansos banget3x, satu-satunya teman yang kupunya hanyalah teman SMA di manado, dimana aku bersyukur banget sekolah disana (dobos, teman-temannya asik semua, bahagia banget, masih keep in touch with em terutama teman segeng), yaa masih naik angkot sih, plus ojek, kadang diantar adikku kalau dia lagi pulang ke manado, kiblatku ke hollywood, sekarang ini lagi hype 13 reasons why, pokoknya intinya: depresi.



sebenarnya seharusnya hari spesial seperti ini diisi dengan postingan yang bermanfaat, tapi, maafkan saya. karena ga ada yang bakalan baca, jadi aku nulis sembarangan pun ga ada faedahnya.


sebenernya pengin throw a party for my blog's 10th birthday sih, tapi, hari ini aku sibuk.


besok hari terakhir sibuk sebelum lebih sibuk lagi nanti. honestly, I never wanted to be involved in this, like, I always wanted to run, but I'm numb.



ONCE AGAIN HAPPY 10TH BIRTHDAY MIBLOG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


*p.s: my blog's birthday is on 420. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed :p (#nowplaying: stand up jamrock) (nah I'm a good girl, never contaminated with what-so-called-bad-things)

13 reasons why

hello, my blog. So, on 20th you will be turn 10. But I will be busy at that day. School-thing, as usual. But I will try to reach you when I had time.

So, I just finished watching netflix series called 13 Reasons Why. This is one of the best series I ever watched. The storyline is intense, the main characters' acting is incredible, and a little bit relatable with my current life. I know this is the story of high-school life, but yea, It's really a cool story. This series is based on a book, 13 Reasons Why by Jay Asher. I never read the book, but If I went to gramedia and the book is available, I will buy it for sure ;)


Uhm, how to tell it without spoilers...


Hannah Baker, a new girl in Liberty High School ended up her own life, and before she did that, she recorded her story into cassettes, there are 7 cassettes and 13 sides and each sides tells story about a person and reason why she killed herself. The main character in here is Hannah's friend and co-worker at Crestmont theater, Clay Jensen. I really like the potrayal of this character, he is a regular boy, a little bit awkward and nerdy, but also really kind. So the series storyline's perspective is on Clay when he listens to all of the cassettes.

On my personal opinion, there is nothing to blame about especially to Hannah. She is the victim of this cruel world, cruel people around her. My high school life was thankfully normal, maybe there are some problems but it went well at all. I have much bigger problem in adulthood life, I'm feeling like I never ready to grow up. I trapped in some things that I don't actually like, but I don't know where else to go. No, I won't do the same thing as Hannah Baker did, I don't have money to buy a tape recorder, my sister used to have that thing 10 years ago tho.

I'm trying to keep my mental state as stable as possible. I have some dreams to be achieved. Eventhough it's hard, but this is life. It will be weird yet wrong if it goes easy.