kilas balik

 4 tahun lalu, aku lagi di liburan di Medan.

Papa masih sehat walafiat, Pandemi Covid belum sampe di Indo, lockdown mulai 2 minggu kemudian.

Aku udah selesai UKMPPD dan OSCE Nasional, lagi nungguin pengumuman yg diperkirakan pertengahan Maret (dan ternyata dipercepat dan bikin kaget seluruh mahasiswa se-Indonesia)

Masih bingung dengan kehidupan (well sampe sekarang sih), kayak, dihantui pikiran buruk gimana kalo ga lulus, mager ujian lagi, atau mungkin ini bukan jalanku (jadi dokter), tapi bokap pasti bakal sedih banget, bakal marah, jantungnya kumat, maka tentunya aku harus terus berusaha buat lulus jadi dokter.

Walau masih feeling miserable post jaga malam banyak pasien, sleep deprived most of the time, tapi aku di 4 tahun lalu mungkin gabakal nyangka dengan apa yang terjadi sekarang.

Minggu depan bakal bertambah umur and I'm trying to keep going.

Tetap lelah jangan semangat <33

bangka yaki

wanna write how I spent last and first few days of 2023 and 2024

sissy #2 just went home.

on Christmas eve, I had to skip annual visit to my dad's because I had night shift so yea.

I slept most of the day on December 25th. Had to do the morning shift on the next day :)

And finally I had a day off! Went to Linow Tomohon and Boulevard Tondano with sissy #2 and her lil family (bang Tian and Thias). It was soo fun <33

December 28th, I would say this is the worst day of the year (well besides 3 chaotic events on June, October, and November).

Another night shift on December 29th (tbh I was quite relieved when I got the last paycheck like, bujug banyak bener ganyangka segini ehe) and went to Pal Beach in the next morning (alias ngantuk bgt but I HAD SO MUCH FUN LIKE I ALWAYS WANTED TO GO TO THE BEACH LATELY) and met up with my high school bffs afterward <33 (kinda amazed seeing Clarien became a mom like she's basically a mother (alias keibuan dan super-baik) tp pas gendong Caitlyn makin keliatan her motherly figure ahaha <333)

And on New Year's Eve I had morning shift (super grateful tbh because I spent the night going to church and the rest with family, aga sedih liat Regi malam taun baruan di UGD mana dia ultah lg)

ANOTHER morning shift on January 1st dan lucunya aku lupa bawa kacamata dong saking ngantuknya haha

And one the second day of 2024 I went to Bumber cafe yg super keren I love outdoorsy cafe feeling like menyatu dengan alam (norak)

*p.s: sampe sekarang belum ke kubur papa like, beliau sampe udh dateng di mimpi beberapa kali, so sorry Dad, next visit I will bring you flower bucket deh janji <33

*p.s.: got mumps last week and viral conjunctivitis this week, thank God I have two days-off, gonna be busy next week :')

no way down

 I KNOW this is just early November.

but I just want to do it right now so

so

2023

me turned 30.

still gloomy, still clumsy, still a crybaby.

I went through a few mistakes in my werkplace, which makes me think, is this the right way?

I always wanted to continue to school

Maybe it's time. (brb nabung)

honorable mentions:

• love the Barbie movie, so relatable on so many levels lol
• still single, obviously.
• 2 years without dad. Always miss him<33
• and also 2 years behind the wheel. still suck at it, I even can't do parallel parking.
• but, me reaching this point, to be honest, was unexpected (dulu fobia nyetir ceritanya)

bye

*p.s.: currently day 90 on Duolingo (only learning Spanish)