so, I just celebrated my 29th birthday, by having a night shift.
I didn't sleep at all, I learned that adulthood is even harder but fun (well).
But I'm trying to create a little bit of small happiness so I could stand still for the rest of my life
(at least for now)
nobody reads this blog.
so why bother.
I will make an annual recap of 2021.
1. Grief. Obviously.
2. Love. Didn't work, again.
3. Werk. It hard.
I was depressed before dad's death. All I was thinking was I better off dead. It changed when he died.
And now, the light starts to dim.
The only reason to keep going is my mom.
So, I will live the day as it should.
after being alive for 28 years, now I realized that working is hard. Working hard is hard. Hardworking is hard.
I appreciate the money more after going through this. I know life is not all about working and paycheck, but it is one of the important things in this civilization. Everybody has their own purpose. For me currently, as a single woman in my late 20s, life is not about just working to pay bills. I need to learn about eeeverything else, that I skipped in most of my early and mid-20s.
*p.s. cheers to myself for standing still in these few weeks. big thanks to my family and friends for keeping me going <33
