20.5.23

520

 kalau bulan lalu mimpi hamil, bulan ini mimpi naik lift terus muter-muter aneh banget

(anehnya udah jarang naik lift di tempat kerja karena kudu pake akses kalau bukan jam kerja)



so anyway, mac aku yg berumur 5 tahun barusan ketumpahan air, bukan air biasa, melainkan vitamin drink gitu yg baunya tajem.


syukurlah masih jadi walau jadi ga berani buka sims (yg bikin laptop langsung ngereog alias ribut)


and also, hari ini bff aku di isip nikah

dan aku ga dateng.


kalo aku jadi doi udah kucut off kali ya :')


tapi aku bener-bener jadi merenung (huh mulai) bahwasanya sudah waktunya aku berpikir dengan jernih.

untuk masalah pekerjaan, utk sekarang aku rasa udah paling bener (ga upgrading) dikarenakan aku harus mengerti batas dan kemampuanku saat ini.

we bare bear minimum.


lastly, tadi pertama kalinya aku timbang berat badan setelah 3 bulan gamau nimbang karena takut, dan benar saja, naik 3 kilo.

tapi belom bisa diet sekarang karena kudu "bakondisi"

yang penting sehat-sehat dan kuat itu aja dah (amen)


20.4.23

being 30

how it feels like?


uhm.


first of all, my instinct to reproduce increasing like cray-cray ROFL

I even dreamed about getting pregnant yesterday, maybe I spent too much time on the Sims 4 aka my alternative universe.

but I had this big trust issue being in a relationship til now.


and also, I got sick a week before turned 30, which makes me realize that I need to be as santuy as possible


we bare bear minimum.












22.2.23

life is very short

 this is gonna be my last post on my 20s.


so, I'm quite sad right now.

but life goes on,

and I must be strong.


I went to the bookstore and grocery store to ease my mind a little bit.

And ended up buying a cup of oat milk coffee at Starbucks. 


at least it cheered me up

🤞🏼