it has been raining all day long

ada sesuatu yang mengganjal dalam hidupku ini.

yang emang salah aku sepenuhnya.

tiap hari aku selalu berdoa, selalu berharap sesuatu yang mengganjal tersebut segera tidak mengganjal lagi.



karena sesuatu yang mengganjal itu menyesakkan dadaku setiap hari, sampai hari ini.

aku benci, aku benci bagaimana aku tidak berusaha bertindak menyelesaikannya, hanya berharap keajaiban datang menyelamatkanku.

aku jadi belajar banyak dengan kehidupan dengan adanya problem tersebut

yaitu lebih bersyukur dengan saat sekarang yang ada.

tidak bersungut-sungut, karena kita nggak tau apa yang akan terjadi nanti.


dan aku berandai-andai sesuatu itu akan lenyap dari hidupku.

aku akan menjadi manusia paling berbahagia di dunia.

betapa lega karena akhirnya aku terbebas dari hal tersebut.

review of this year, 2014

hi!

2014 will be ended soon. never expected that one year passed kinda fast.

in this post, i will make a year's summary.

i started 2014 with sleep early, woke up early, went to morning church bymyself.

and then, i don't remember anything.

a disaster has happened on manado, big flood and landslide destroyed many houses and many people died :( my house is located at higher place tho, so i'm okay. but still...

i also took driving course on early january, and till now, i am still not capable to drive bymyself. i'm totally suck at driving omg.

on this year's valentine day, me and my two close friends did "gift exchange". typical single girls. but i like it lol

on my 21st birthday, my old friends and their mother came to manado, so i celebrated it with them. its really fun, they flushed me with "weird ingredient" and in the midnight i had to took a shower

and i realized that the more year passed, i became "more" older. duh. 

the rest of year........ (of course i wont type it every month coz i even dont remember all of it)

i got first iphone, and a lil bit regret coz i cant get LINE free coins on it lol

my family and i went to batam and singapore for the first time! i almost lost my ferry ticket and i did anxious yelled on the harbour, and i made the hotel's bed a lil bit bloody red coz i got my period uncontrolled. and any embarasing moment is we came to "wrong" hostel and already paid it and then cancelled it. and tramp around to find another "eligible" one. totally messed up. but yeah, worst moments are good to be remembered and learnt.

and the ending credit (meh), i experienced one frickin silly moment. i know this is my fault, so i cant blame others huh.

it started by a whole term i didn't study well, so on the 3rd OSCE, i studied in one night (not actual one night actually, just, yeah, idkhowtosay), i slept on 3am and woke up around 9.30am. coz i know my exam's time is around eleven, and i know thats just wrong to came one hour before the test.

so i came and kinda furious coz my friend texted me that my group will be start the exam very soon. and you know what, i overrun the group which is not my group but a group before mine.(and they're already get set to go to the slaughterhouse) i came still with bag and, get caught by a lecturer.

that lecturer told to me to sit down and i have no idea what did happened. thankfully others lecturers are superkind and didn't take this seriously serious. they are really nice omg thank docs.....

kay that's my 2014 review. freaking boring isn't it? but yeah, i thank life.