roller coaster

today is 20th of September, 2016. 20th always be something for me, for blogging and writing. I mean, I started writing diary on April 20th, 2003. I started blogging on April 20th, 2007. Just that, nothing more about 20th. The last time i published a post in here was on June 19th, which nearly the 20th. Pardon of the silly ice-breaker. I have nothing to share about. Actually I have some.

First of all, I felt so bad for not published new post for 3 months. I was busy on the last one month tho, but not the other two months. It just like, I got writer's block, or may I call it, blogger's block. I have many ideas to share about, but I just got lazy and didn't got a mood so yeah.

The funny thing is, that busy month on last month, was the crucial month for me. I got anxiety attack and leads to depressed syndrome. I cried all the time, I didn't have any energy to do anything, and I even had suicidal thoughts. But at least for now I already went through it so don't worry. I am quite okay right now :)

Those rough times really helped me and got me some experiences and life lessons. Early adulthood years is really-really-really fascinating. I mean, we have some ups and downs, and we should get through all of them. I will survive and stayin' alive! :D

Sorry for these sick grammars. Nobody gonna reads this thing tho. Bye!

I have an exam on Tuesday.

And my life is completely a messed up right now.

I have no idea what should I do.

I know, I should study, obviously.


But, this always happens.

Too hard to me to stay focus.

And this exam kinda be the last chance for me to "succeed"


Sometimes, I be like, screw those,

but,

I don't know.

:'(

FIGHTING FOR SKRIPSI!!!

udah masuk hari keempat di tahun 2016, dan skripsi aku udah 3 bulan gak disentuh semenjak kelar proposal. aku gak kepikiran buat perbaiki selain yang ditandain ama dosen penguji aku waktu seminar proposal lalu.

aku pengeeeen bgt, satu permintaan aja, agar seminar skripsi ini gak kelimpungan dan terburu-buru kayak waktu ujian proposal lalu. Gak ngeprint pagi-pagi sebelum berangkat seminar, gak ngejilid pagi-pagi sendiri lalu kacau hasil jilidnya, gak bikin power point H - 1, gak telat datang seminar, dan gak pede waktu presentasi seminar.

ya cara mengatasinya yaitu gak menunda waktu lagi. bikin skripsi dari sekarang. masalahnya, aku gak ngerti spss. harus belajar lagi dulu. aku pun gak mau berkutat ama laptop jam begini, traumatized kinda thing. aku pengen bgt besok bangun pagi-pagi banget supaya bisa keburu ngejar dospem.


kuatkan aku ya Tuhan.. hanya sampai kelar seminar skripsi. abis itu, aku boleh berleha-leha sampai mati bosan...........