roller coaster

today is 20th of September, 2016. 20th always be something for me, for blogging and writing. I mean, I started writing diary on April 20th, 2003. I started blogging on April 20th, 2007. Just that, nothing more about 20th. The last time i published a post in here was on June 19th, which nearly the 20th. Pardon of the silly ice-breaker. I have nothing to share about. Actually I have some.

First of all, I felt so bad for not published new post for 3 months. I was busy on the last one month tho, but not the other two months. It just like, I got writer's block, or may I call it, blogger's block. I have many ideas to share about, but I just got lazy and didn't got a mood so yeah.

The funny thing is, that busy month on last month, was the crucial month for me. I got anxiety attack and leads to depressed syndrome. I cried all the time, I didn't have any energy to do anything, and I even had suicidal thoughts. But at least for now I already went through it so don't worry. I am quite okay right now :)

Those rough times really helped me and got me some experiences and life lessons. Early adulthood years is really-really-really fascinating. I mean, we have some ups and downs, and we should get through all of them. I will survive and stayin' alive! :D

Sorry for these sick grammars. Nobody gonna reads this thing tho. Bye!

tomorrow is my dad's birthday and the post will not be synchronized with this title

AKHIRNYA BIKIN HEADER BLOG SETELAH BEBERAPA TAHUN !!

Emang sih simpel abis, tapi ya... better than nothing :p

Mengapa warna-warni? Sebenarnya dari dulu beberapa kali aku membuat font warna-warni (di header) seperti ini.. Jadi ya begitulah :)

Mengapa fontnya COMIC SANS MS? Karena aku suka font ini! Gak ngerti kenapa semua orang bilang font ini jelek dan keanak-anakan. Emang sih, untuk some occasion misalnya bikin surat resmi atau apapun yang formal, kalau pakai comic sans jadinya gak lucu gitu, tapi karena blogku ini bukan sesuatu yang resmi, formal, dan pokoknya bebas, jadinya pakai font kesayanganku dari SD ajah huehue

sebenarnya karena font ini gak ada di daftar font untuk blog title, makanya, aku bikin header. Padahal kalau mau dipikir-pikir, membuat header seharusnya pakai font yang downloadable yang lebih lucu dan unik, tapi, nanti deh kalau bosan aku ganti lagi.

Jadi, aku mau membahas apa ya sekarang?

Oke, kekhawatiran aku minggu lalu sudah tidak terlalu lagi.. Puji Tuhan, berkat rahmat dan anugerahnya maka saya bisa lulus ujian BP. setelah penantian setahun :') Mudah-mudahan aku jadi gak besar kepala dan tinggi hati, mengingat nilai belum masuk di portal, jadi belum bisa sepenuhnya lega. Tapi masih ada beberapa mata kuliah lagi yang mau diurus, jadi, aku harus setrong, seperti kata devina auril.

Besok juga aku akan memburu tanda-tangan kepala bagian sukripsi aku. Semoga bisa dapet tanda-tangan beliau, sehingga bisa lanjut ke dear beloved dean, dan pokoknya bisa mengurus yang harus diurus dengan tepat waktu :')

Sekian dulu curhatanku.. Ini ada bonus :p

baii!

I have an exam on Tuesday.

And my life is completely a messed up right now.

I have no idea what should I do.

I know, I should study, obviously.


But, this always happens.

Too hard to me to stay focus.

And this exam kinda be the last chance for me to "succeed"


Sometimes, I be like, screw those,

but,

I don't know.

:'(