It's November already

One of the memory of Alm. Mr. Rengkung, took by me from my digital camera

May 6th, 2011, he asked me to took a photo of the teachers :')

Few days ago one of my favorite teacher in high school passed away.
He is the only teacher in my life who ever read my blog, when I moved to Manado, I made a blogpost about the comparison of my old school and new school. He once googled our school name for no reason and voila, my blog is right there on google. I found it quite funny actually, and the irony is, I wrote about how I hate my physics teacher for some reason, and I have no idea if he ever read that part or not, but seems like he didn't make a deal out of it.

I'm sad. He went to the hospital few times, but I never got one chance to visit him. And I didn't donate or visit him for the last time in school or his funeral at home. I don't have any money in my ATM (I live with my parents, still in school (read: unemployed), and got allowance daily or only when I go to school (read: hospital). My nephew got hospitalized at that time, so my mom was busy and I didn't want to bother her about the donation. I wanted to go to my high school to see him for the last time, but I was busy for the school things at hospital. So I just can pray from here, he is already safe there, he is the strongest person I ever knew, and he always spread the positive vibes to others.

He inspires me a lot. It makes me wanted to be stronger. Life is just a tiny specks in universe, so do us and all of our problems. Learning for all the life lessons I've been went through, there is one conclusion: Everything is gonna be alright. So, just live the life as it comes. Problems are always there but it wouldn't be last forever.

I'm 26 years young, still fighting with school-life for the sake of the future, and I must be strong. Not only me, but all of us.

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Hello my lovely readers (ugh who's gonna read this shitty blog anyway)

So I wanted to do some recap of my clerkship. So yeah, this is, my

Top 5 Memorable Moments in Clerkship

1. Neurology

Spent 4 weeks of weight-loss, stressed-out, and so many weird things happened inside. But I SURVIVED

2. First month in clerkship

For me adjusting to new environment is the hardest thing ever, so yea. I cried almost everyday yet I was trying hard to stay strong. Big thanks to many people around (my beloved family, dr. Ida, dr. Awal, dr. Sarwono, Desmon, Mustika, Lena, Nuel, etc) (even special thanks for Orin, Acha, and Stefan, your "semangat!" means alot)

3. Psychiatry

I failed at first attempt and back to this dept almost two years later, and never regret this decision.

4. Pediatry

I learnt so much at outstation, spent 10 weeks took speedy shower at hospital, quite scared because I screwed up at the OSCE and MCQs but at least I passed with average score which I really deserved it. (and don’t forget case report in English whoa best experience evurrr)

5. Surgery

This dept is challenging. 10 weeks of “hardwork”, I almost gave up in my case report but thanks to dr Coco and Alin I finished it at the very last day on week-10. And I passed the OSCE with the score of 69.6 (a.k.a 70, the minimum score to get B)

Honorable Mentions:

a. Radiology

Everytime I’m passing by this place, I really hate the smell of the machines and the cold aircons.

b. PM&R

At first I’m thinking that maybe I could be continue my journey in this dept, but after went through it even for a week, well, no, thanks, bye.

c. Forensic and Medicolegal

This is my last place in clerkship (before I had to back in Psychiatry). We got a special chance to join the autopsy of drowning bodies. It started at 00.00 and finished around 03.30am, big thanks to dr.Elisa, dr.Johannis Mallo, and also all the best doctors and best staffs in this department.

AND NOW I HAD TO DEAL WITH ANOTHER CHECKPOINT.
BETTER GET AWAY WITH IT.
HUNDRED DAYS LEFT.
I LOVE LIFE.

Almost done

But I felt really not motivated.

why? I have no idea.


Thinking about life, about how ungrateful am I at the very first time, but as the time goes by, I'm starting to make a peace with myself.

But still...


I love my family. My mom is the #1 person in my life. My dad, sometimes not quite along with me, because we both quite alike in personalities. But he's my role model of "how to not give up on life" in life. My brother, my sister, and my best friends are my support system in life.


And also, many acquaintances and strangers. Even you'd never know about this. Thank you.


Thank you all