2019 in a post

I want to write a quick review of this year.

So I celebrated new year in hospital, you can see more in here

Thing went well, I finished clerkship in March, and struggled to get things done (OSCE in surgery dept and two weeks in psychiatry) in August.


Finished two months of a tiring thing socalled stase ukmppd.

and now, I must study for pass tryout (AIPKI or tryout held by our faculty) in January so I could join National Examination on February 2020.

29 days left until AIPKI

man, I will spent Holiday studying hard. This a lil bit hard especially after all trauma and drama I went through last week, highly sensitive person like me kind of quite hard to heal, but I will try.

see u next year!

It's November already

One of the memory of Alm. Mr. Rengkung, took by me from my digital camera

May 6th, 2011, he asked me to took a photo of the teachers :')

Few days ago one of my favorite teacher in high school passed away.
He is the only teacher in my life who ever read my blog, when I moved to Manado, I made a blogpost about the comparison of my old school and new school. He once googled our school name for no reason and voila, my blog is right there on google. I found it quite funny actually, and the irony is, I wrote about how I hate my physics teacher for some reason, and I have no idea if he ever read that part or not, but seems like he didn't make a deal out of it.

I'm sad. He went to the hospital few times, but I never got one chance to visit him. And I didn't donate or visit him for the last time in school or his funeral at home. I don't have any money in my ATM (I live with my parents, still in school (read: unemployed), and got allowance daily or only when I go to school (read: hospital). My nephew got hospitalized at that time, so my mom was busy and I didn't want to bother her about the donation. I wanted to go to my high school to see him for the last time, but I was busy for the school things at hospital. So I just can pray from here, he is already safe there, he is the strongest person I ever knew, and he always spread the positive vibes to others.

He inspires me a lot. It makes me wanted to be stronger. Life is just a tiny specks in universe, so do us and all of our problems. Learning for all the life lessons I've been went through, there is one conclusion: Everything is gonna be alright. So, just live the life as it comes. Problems are always there but it wouldn't be last forever.

I'm 26 years young, still fighting with school-life for the sake of the future, and I must be strong. Not only me, but all of us.

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Hello my lovely readers (ugh who's gonna read this shitty blog anyway)

So I wanted to do some recap of my clerkship. So yeah, this is, my

Top 5 Memorable Moments in Clerkship

1. Neurology

Spent 4 weeks of weight-loss, stressed-out, and so many weird things happened inside. But I SURVIVED

2. First month in clerkship

For me adjusting to new environment is the hardest thing ever, so yea. I cried almost everyday yet I was trying hard to stay strong. Big thanks to many people around (my beloved family, dr. Ida, dr. Awal, dr. Sarwono, Desmon, Mustika, Lena, Nuel, etc) (even special thanks for Orin, Acha, and Stefan, your "semangat!" means alot)

3. Psychiatry

I failed at first attempt and back to this dept almost two years later, and never regret this decision.

4. Pediatry

I learnt so much at outstation, spent 10 weeks took speedy shower at hospital, quite scared because I screwed up at the OSCE and MCQs but at least I passed with average score which I really deserved it. (and don’t forget case report in English whoa best experience evurrr)

5. Surgery

This dept is challenging. 10 weeks of “hardwork”, I almost gave up in my case report but thanks to dr Coco and Alin I finished it at the very last day on week-10. And I passed the OSCE with the score of 69.6 (a.k.a 70, the minimum score to get B)

Honorable Mentions:

a. Radiology

Everytime I’m passing by this place, I really hate the smell of the machines and the cold aircons.

b. PM&R

At first I’m thinking that maybe I could be continue my journey in this dept, but after went through it even for a week, well, no, thanks, bye.

c. Forensic and Medicolegal

This is my last place in clerkship (before I had to back in Psychiatry). We got a special chance to join the autopsy of drowning bodies. It started at 00.00 and finished around 03.30am, big thanks to dr.Elisa, dr.Johannis Mallo, and also all the best doctors and best staffs in this department.

AND NOW I HAD TO DEAL WITH ANOTHER CHECKPOINT.
BETTER GET AWAY WITH IT.
HUNDRED DAYS LEFT.
I LOVE LIFE.

Almost done

But I felt really not motivated.

why? I have no idea.


Thinking about life, about how ungrateful am I at the very first time, but as the time goes by, I'm starting to make a peace with myself.

But still...


I love my family. My mom is the #1 person in my life. My dad, sometimes not quite along with me, because we both quite alike in personalities. But he's my role model of "how to not give up on life" in life. My brother, my sister, and my best friends are my support system in life.


And also, many acquaintances and strangers. Even you'd never know about this. Thank you.


Thank you all

I'M A NEW ARMY!! and happy almost-12 years old my blog!!

Happy almost-12 years old, my beloved blog ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

Berbeda dari biasanya dimana aku selalu menceritakan boring story about how I started this blog, I will write something different.

U know, since March 24th aku udah selesai koas. Belum sepenuhnya selesai karena aku belum ujian bedah dan balik psikiatri 2 minggu (iya. my favorite thing) so yeah. Ujian bedah tanggal 26 April, jadi aku punya banyak waktu untuk "beristirahat".

Dan semenjak kemarin, aku "resmi" jadi ARMY. satu dari ratusan juta fansnya boyband asal korea, BTS.

Begini ceritanya.

Aku selama ini udah denger tentang BTS, tapi karena aku tidak pernah "into" kpop (dan kdrama), makanya ya dianggap lalu aja. Malah adikku (cowok, badannya gede, anak basket) yang suka nonton running man, kdrama dan denger kpop. Aku sering ledekkin dia tapi cuma bercanda sih. Calm down, I'm totally an open minded person :p

Dari tahun 2018, aku udah diracuni teman seangkatanku yang koas bareng, Akiko, karena dia hobi nyanyi dan nari lagu-lagu korea sambil bercanda ama teman-temannya. Kok aku ngeliatnya lucu, jadi aku search deh di youtube. Taunya Twice doang soalnya itu yang sering dinyanyiin Akiko. Tapi ya gitu, sekali lagi, dianggap lalu.

Oh ya, waktu SMA, sekitar tahun 2010an, aku juga suka liat videonya SNSD di youtube. Mereka keren narinya, badannya tinggi langsing, enak dilihat lah. Lagunya juga asik-asik. Tapi sekali lagi, dianggap lalu. Emang bukan saatnya kali ya haha.

November 2018, lagi-lagi Akiko nunjukkin video anak-anak k-Tigers (kelompok Taekwondo asal korea) nari (tapi ada gerakan-gerakan Taekwondonya, jumpalitan sana-sini, tendang ubin, dll haha) lagunya girlband asal korea, Momoland yang judulnya Boom Boom. Aku liatnya kayak :O keren abissss... tapi..... sekali lagi, dianggap lalu lagi. Mungkin selama setahun itu sibuk koas, jadi ya gada waktu buat gabut nontonin video dan menemukan ilham.

Dan Maret ini, Akiko, aku, dan banyak teman lainnya pergi karaoke. Akiko puter lagu Yes or Yes by Twice ama Fire by BTS. Kocak banget dah itu lagu bahasa korea njelimet gitu dibabat ama mereka haha.


Nah selama libur ini aku sering susah tidur sampai pagi karena baru ketiduran pagi-siang. Pokoknya jam tidurku rusak banget. Nah, jadi seringnya subuhku habis dengan menonton video di youtube biar ga bosan. Suatu saat aku lagi bikin playlist di youtube, ngumpulin lagu-lagu korea yang asik dancenya, salah satunya Fire by BTS. Aku tonton lagi, trus baru ngeh, ini yang di tengah siapa, kok cakep.. Since I didn't know any of em and even couldn't tell the differences between em cuz they're all pretty, aku googling akhirnya.


Jongkok, eh, Jungkook. Umurnya baru 22 tahun, emang main vocalist grup ini.

Trus aku nonton video mereka pas di Jimmy Fallon. Kok lucu-lucu banget yak, apalagi Jimin yang dibaptis jadi Jimin Fallon wkwk.

Akhirnya aku mulai apalin mereka satu-satu, nonton video klip lagu-lagu mereka yang lain di youtube, dan akhirnya keterusan.

yap, aku terperosok dalam lubang BTS.

Entah kenapa aku berusaha buat ga terlalu terperosok lebih dalam lagi, soalnya bahayaaaa hahaha. Aku maunya biasa aja sih, semoga aja gitu, jadi army tapi ya yang ga fanatik banget. tapi kayaknya susah ya? hehehe


Sooooo..... what am I thinking of every members?

1. Jungkook. Makasih loh dek, gara-gara kamu di tengah pas nari Fire, akhirnya aku mulai masuk dalam dunia BTS hehe. Kece banget sih dia, suaranya bagus, nari juga oke, ganteng pula. Anaknya seems artsy gitu hehe

2. RM. Ntah kenapa mengingatkanku kepada seorang teman SMAku, Aldy yang aura geniusnya keluar-keluar haha. Bedanya Aldy bukan anak boyband wkwkwk. Keren si RM ini, leader yang selain pinter, juga sayang ama anggota-anggotanya. gemes deh.

3. J-hope. Yaampun ini anak kayak cacing kepanasan, kocak banget pembawaannya bikin ketawa mulu. Jago nari lagi uhhhh dek jangan terlalu adorable kenapa hahaha

4. Jimin. Aku kayaknya menjurus biasnya ke Jimin. Dia keren banget kalo perform, orangnya sweet pula. Aku suka banget dia di Blood Sweat & Tears.

5. Suga. Aku kok kayak setipe persilatan ama dia hahaha. Sama-sama tanggal lahirnya (beda sehari deng), grumpynya sama banget, suka main piano tengah malem, pokoknya gitu dah. ga ngerti lagi.

6. Jin. Mukaknya gemesin banget trus sweet banget orangnya. Aku kirain dia yang dateng ke Jakarta trus duduk di sebelah bebi tsubasa ternyata bukan (lagian ga mungkin dia ke indo, dunia pasti heboh banget trus masa dia sendirian doang hehe)

7. V. Beneran living anime like people said. Sampe sekarang aku susah bedain dia ama dede Jungkook saking miripnya, tapi kayaknya udah mulai bisa hehe. Suaranya bagusss~

Udah udah. Sebenarnya bahas pemilu lebih penting sih, cuma aku kok kayak ga mau mikir berat-berat yak. Aku berdoa yang terbaik aja buat Indonesia. Beneran. Aku takut. Tapi harus optimis aja. It's gonna be my second time voting, but the choice still be the same. Got it? 😎

*p.s: gokil ini mereka mukaknya bening amat kayak guci porselen. Aku jadi semangat rajin cuci muka gegara malu ama mereka ahhahahahaha ga ding.

Valentine's Day

Happy Val's Day

I personally don't celebrate this kind of day coz I'm single for a decade now.

Like, the only memorable thing about Val's Day that I remembered was I ate all of the 10 chocolate bars that I bought by MYSELF. I was planning to give em to my friends and lovers but since I didn't have both (til now) so yea. Those dark era kinda time.


Sooooooooooooooo what am I supossed to write in this post?

Honestly I have no idea. Today is the graduation of my batch, which makes me feel more, yea.

But I'm still trying to reach the finish line. Even tho it's hard. like, it's fun, but, it. is. really. hard.



I'm going to eat indomie goreng to celebrate Valentine's day. Bye!

2019 ganti birman

SELAMAT TAHUN BARU 2019 YO FELLAZZ!!

Untuk pertama kalinya dalam hidupku,

Aku GA BIKIN RESOLUSI TAHUN BARU.


WHY?

BCOZ IT SUX

I MEANT, AKU PASTI GA BAKAL WUJUDIN

SO, RATHER THAN BE UPSET LATER IN THE END OF THE YEAR, I PREFER TO NOT MAKING ANY



Aku mau cerita how I spent the 00:00


Aku jaga malam tanggal 31 Desember 2018 di UGD kandungan, dari aku balik mandi jam 20ish, aman tentram dan damai. Kami pun nongkrong di depan ruang VK (Verlos Kamer a.k.a Ruang Bersalin Nomal) sambil makan-makan malabar, foto-foto, ketawa-ketawa, tukar kado, nonton Gempita 2019 di SCTV, cerita-cerita


and then............


jam 23.45, 2 PASIEN BARU DATANG.


JADI... JAM 00:00, AKU LAGI PERSIAPAN BUAT BAKAR-BAKAR, BUKAN BAKAR KEMBANG API, TAPI BAKAR URIN


But it's really fun tho. I love it!


Jam 2an, kami pun bakar kembang api sambil pepotoan di balkon belakang lantai 2. Mine was a mess, but gathering with girlfriends doin' a little fun thing is fun.


And I spent most of the day sleeping because I'm too exhausting. Typical introvert.


Hope you guys enjoyed your new day, gbye!