Happy Valentine's Day!
Pink, Love is in the Air, Chocolate, Dinner for two, etcetera..
What about myself?
Nothing special. I woke up late, but I have nothing to do so I just playing games on my tablet, scrolling around social medias, and tonight, writing on my beloved blog! It's too hard to force myself to write, because when I'm not on my mood, the post will be not quite good. Basically all my posts aren't good enough tho.
I want to throwing back the February 14th on few years ago....
I will start on 2010. 7 years ago. I'm in love, with one of my schoolmate. But it feels like, one sided love. So the feeling was starting to be vanished. Me and my best friend, Ain, went to a mall, which I really missed about, hanging out with best friend. And the night we were watching basketball competition. I really missed going out at night because I moved to new house and it's kinda far from the city.
2011 is the hectic one. On Sunday, February 13th, me and my best friend, Ain, made homemade chocolate to my friend's house. And the result is failed. Later on, I decided to buy some chocolates in the supermarket instead. And at the D-day, I gave one of the chocolate to one of my crush. Well it's kinda embarassing but it was also hilarious. Same as my crush before, nothing really happened so, yeah. I know, my lovelife sucks.
2012, I spent the night on my friend's room doing group assignment. Me and Sharon went home on 9pm at night, the traffic was a little bit crowded, but I arrived home safely.
And honestly I don't remember the years after, beside on one day, I buy a lot of chunky bars and eat it all BY MY SELF.
the point is, this few years is even worst than one sided love. I mean, at least I had some interesting things to share eventho that's painful. Nevertheless, I don't care about valentine's day anymore. For now.
Yea. Life is boring. So do this post. Bye
14.2.17
20.1.17
2017, first blogger ever, poor sun bears in bandung zoo
hello. this is my first post in 2017. coincidentally today is January 20th. it means today is the third month before my blog's 10 years anniversary!
I mean, I've never thinking to be still doing blogging till now. Well, I know I really like writing, but I usually get bored so easily, so I really don't know why I'm still doing this.
Ten years ago, I was 14. I was so clueless about this world, this life, including internet world. But I used to really-really happy that day. I have so many wild dreams to be achieved, which is failed at all.
Nowadays I became so hopeless, don't have any desire to live, always sad and disappointed, etcetera.
I can only entertain myself with play random games on my tablet, or watching cartoons, listen to songs that I already bored of (I used to love it but after listen to it like too many times, you know..)
Maybe when I'm ready I'm gonna tell, why I'm sad, just if I already figured out why, because sometimes, I don't even know why I'm sad.
By the way, in this early new year, there are new few things that popped in my head.
First of, I once find out who's the first blogger ever. Turned out it was a handsome and cheerful young man named Justin Hall. He started blogging on 1994, which is really-really awesome! Then I watch his 40 minutes documentary video about his journey on 20 years doing blogging, and I really-really felt related to him! When I moved to another school in high school (this was 8 years ago), one of my teacher recognize me because he read my blog about my new school. Well, I wrote a lot, including how I didn't like my physics teacher, but thankfully he didn't make a big deal about that :p
Justin's now in his 40s, living a good life as a husband and loving father. He has own youtube channel, and the history knows him as first blogger ever! So cool! (his links.net itself blocked in my country because of the mature contents. thank God there is a thing called VPN)
Second, I'm so touched by the starving sun bears in Bandung Zoo. Gosh, never been this sad to watch the video of them begged for food by visitors. I know, in the province I live, there is also a wildlife park named Tandurusa which kinda neglected too. The video was uploaded two years ago, so I don't know if it already be take care or not. I never went there and wanted to go there but it never happened until now so.. but at least the animals in tandurusa aren't too skinny and begged for food like those poor sun bears. I wish all the best for everything about this alarming event. Especially for the bears.
That's all for today folks. Pardon my fricking grammars. Thank you! Bye!
I mean, I've never thinking to be still doing blogging till now. Well, I know I really like writing, but I usually get bored so easily, so I really don't know why I'm still doing this.
Ten years ago, I was 14. I was so clueless about this world, this life, including internet world. But I used to really-really happy that day. I have so many wild dreams to be achieved, which is failed at all.
Nowadays I became so hopeless, don't have any desire to live, always sad and disappointed, etcetera.
I can only entertain myself with play random games on my tablet, or watching cartoons, listen to songs that I already bored of (I used to love it but after listen to it like too many times, you know..)
Maybe when I'm ready I'm gonna tell, why I'm sad, just if I already figured out why, because sometimes, I don't even know why I'm sad.
By the way, in this early new year, there are new few things that popped in my head.
First of, I once find out who's the first blogger ever. Turned out it was a handsome and cheerful young man named Justin Hall. He started blogging on 1994, which is really-really awesome! Then I watch his 40 minutes documentary video about his journey on 20 years doing blogging, and I really-really felt related to him! When I moved to another school in high school (this was 8 years ago), one of my teacher recognize me because he read my blog about my new school. Well, I wrote a lot, including how I didn't like my physics teacher, but thankfully he didn't make a big deal about that :p
Justin's now in his 40s, living a good life as a husband and loving father. He has own youtube channel, and the history knows him as first blogger ever! So cool! (his links.net itself blocked in my country because of the mature contents. thank God there is a thing called VPN)
Second, I'm so touched by the starving sun bears in Bandung Zoo. Gosh, never been this sad to watch the video of them begged for food by visitors. I know, in the province I live, there is also a wildlife park named Tandurusa which kinda neglected too. The video was uploaded two years ago, so I don't know if it already be take care or not. I never went there and wanted to go there but it never happened until now so.. but at least the animals in tandurusa aren't too skinny and begged for food like those poor sun bears. I wish all the best for everything about this alarming event. Especially for the bears.
That's all for today folks. Pardon my fricking grammars. Thank you! Bye!
23.12.16
2016
setahun nganggur.. kecuali beberapa urusan terutama bulan agustus-november
dan bener-bener selama 23 tahun aku hidup, 2016 merupakan tahun dimana aku benar-benar menghabiskan waktu "percuma"
bayangin, yang seharusnya aku perawatan muka yang jerawatan dan ga enak dilihat ini, perawatan siku yang ga enak dilihat ini, perawatan kulit tubuh biar lebih kinclong (eeek), dan terutama, terutama, belajar buat persiapan tahun depan, malah aku habisin dengan, bahkan aku bingung apa yang terjadi satu tahun ini, kenapa tiba-tiba udah lewat cepat banget aja.
mari mereview setahun ini tiap bulannya:
dan bener-bener selama 23 tahun aku hidup, 2016 merupakan tahun dimana aku benar-benar menghabiskan waktu "percuma"
bayangin, yang seharusnya aku perawatan muka yang jerawatan dan ga enak dilihat ini, perawatan siku yang ga enak dilihat ini, perawatan kulit tubuh biar lebih kinclong (eeek), dan terutama, terutama, belajar buat persiapan tahun depan, malah aku habisin dengan, bahkan aku bingung apa yang terjadi satu tahun ini, kenapa tiba-tiba udah lewat cepat banget aja.
mari mereview setahun ini tiap bulannya:
- Januari : ujian skripsi, revisi sampe mabok
- Februari : hard cover skripsi
- Maret : ulang tahun kabur dari Manado (nah, bukan kabur literally, tapi liburan ke tempat sahabatku di Surabaya), dan juga, menghabiskan banyak uang untuk belanja. which is bad
- April : nganggur
- Mei : handphoneku jatoh dan retak parah dan harus diservis bayar 2jeti
- Juni : ujian 1 mata kuliah
- Juli : vamily facation at bali, which is a worst days i ever had
- Agustus : pergejolakan batin menjelang akhir bulan
- September : masih sedikit pergejolakan batin
- Oktober : lelah batin
- November : nganggur
- Desember : abisin kuota 4G yang menumpuk :)
see. keliatannya aja cepat berlalu padahal aku sempat melalui crucial months yang bikin aku tuh bener-bener ga ada semangat hidup. (even basically i have no spirit to life) (mungkin semangat hidupnya di bulan crucial itu adalah minus 98 dari +100)
tetapi, aku belajar banget dari 12 bulan yang penuh challenge ini (bukan samyang challenge maupun mannequin challenge). aku harus lebih bersikap dewasa dan bijak, berkepala dingin dan ga cepat marah dan down, karena hidup itu keras. banget.
aku ga tau ini postingan terakhirku di tahun 2016 atau engga soalnya bisa jadi aku punya mood lagi buat nulis di lain waktu di tahun 2016 ini. barangkali, buat mengumpulkan niat menulis untuk sekarang ini aja susah banget. hehe bye
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