I don't know why, I'm enjoying my days greet sick children, so they want us to do examination on them. Some of them crying immediately when they see white coat human being, got traumatize by needle. I even found a 5 year-old girl literally cursing when we came to her. Many of them are still babies and quite calm and had such a smiley face. Feeling like this was the another thing to enjoyed.
So.. what's going on? 3 months later to finished this hardcore year evur in my life.
I'm on my quarter-life crisis.
I'm trying to holding on.
Eventhou this is just too hard. like, to, hard.
BUT I MUST KEEP GOIN
25.9.18
29.8.18
up up up
sometimes when you think about life...
when something that "seems" bad happened.
but actually it has another meaning to it
the more I grew up, the more I think that I've been doing wrong for all of my entire life.
why is this happened?
why life is so unfair?
I even lost my future visions. Don't know why.
I;m trying to fix all of these things but still. it's hard. and not easy. of course.
but in the end, I hope, and I must be sure that, all is well.
when something that "seems" bad happened.
but actually it has another meaning to it
the more I grew up, the more I think that I've been doing wrong for all of my entire life.
why is this happened?
why life is so unfair?
I even lost my future visions. Don't know why.
I;m trying to fix all of these things but still. it's hard. and not easy. of course.
but in the end, I hope, and I must be sure that, all is well.
14.8.18
quarter-life crisis my ass
25 tahun 5 bulan.
masih sekolah.
tiap hari capek.
ada ups and downs
sekarang lagi downs.
pulang ke kos nangis-nangis ga ada sebab
mungkin kurang tidur
mungkin mata gatal
yang jelas lagi irritable mood
sepertinya juga lagi PMS
banyak kewajiban
banyak yang kudu diurus
aku ga tau pada dasarnya aku pemalas atau emang semua ini terasa berat bagiku
gerak pun udah ga mampu
apakah ini yang dinamakan quarter-life crisis?
makin tua juga aku makin jutek
makin benci banyak orang
makin mengenal keaslian orang-orang (terutama di masa sekolahku yang boleh dibilang masa-masa sulit, semua sifat asli orang-orang sekitar terbongkar semua).
ada yang keliatannya jutek tapi ternyata baik banget
ada yang keliatannya baik tapi ternyata bangke abis
ada yang keliatannya bangke dan emang bangke
makin mendapatkan berbagai tantangan kehidupan. dan ini bertubi-tubi
jadinya themesongs aku currently itu:
- houdini - foster the ppl
- hard times - paramore
- trouble is a friend - lenka
capeque.
masih sekolah.
tiap hari capek.
ada ups and downs
sekarang lagi downs.
pulang ke kos nangis-nangis ga ada sebab
mungkin kurang tidur
mungkin mata gatal
yang jelas lagi irritable mood
sepertinya juga lagi PMS
banyak kewajiban
banyak yang kudu diurus
aku ga tau pada dasarnya aku pemalas atau emang semua ini terasa berat bagiku
gerak pun udah ga mampu
apakah ini yang dinamakan quarter-life crisis?
makin tua juga aku makin jutek
makin benci banyak orang
makin mengenal keaslian orang-orang (terutama di masa sekolahku yang boleh dibilang masa-masa sulit, semua sifat asli orang-orang sekitar terbongkar semua).
ada yang keliatannya jutek tapi ternyata baik banget
ada yang keliatannya baik tapi ternyata bangke abis
ada yang keliatannya bangke dan emang bangke
makin mendapatkan berbagai tantangan kehidupan. dan ini bertubi-tubi
jadinya themesongs aku currently itu:
- houdini - foster the ppl
- hard times - paramore
- trouble is a friend - lenka
capeque.
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