upgrading

last week.

that one unforgettable week.



I was fucking fucked up at that time.

I cried inside all the time.


but thank you

I want to be a psychiatrist because of all those things.
at least I saw a little light in front of me. maybe one day it will change, I never know.

thank you. thank you so much.

diarrhea

I don't know why, I'm enjoying my days greet sick children, so they want us to do examination on them. Some of them crying immediately when they see white coat human being, got traumatize by needle. I even found a 5 year-old girl literally cursing when we came to her. Many of them are still babies and quite calm and had such a smiley face. Feeling like this was the another thing to enjoyed.

So.. what's going on? 3 months later to finished this hardcore year evur in my life.

I'm on my quarter-life crisis.

I'm trying to holding on.

Eventhou this is just too hard. like, to, hard.


BUT I MUST KEEP GOIN

up up up

sometimes when you think about life...

when something that "seems" bad happened.


but actually it has another meaning to it



the more I grew up, the more I think that I've been doing wrong for all of my entire life.


why is this happened?

why life is so unfair?


I even lost my future visions. Don't know why.


I;m trying to fix all of these things but still. it's hard. and not easy. of course.


but in the end, I hope, and I must be sure that, all is well.