gonna get up gonna get out

Minggu depan aku akan meninggalkan umur 25.

Jujur, beberapa minggu sebelum masuk usia 25, aku stres berat.

Sibuk di bedah, lapkas terbengkalai, pokoknya aku ingin mati.

Yet I was still facing each day pretended nothing's wrong, but it was actually something wrong.

Tapi... Setelah melewati berbagai lika-liku kehidupan, mulai dari nangis-nangis terkait lapkas bedah sampe bolos parade dan umak datang ke kos nenangin aku (mostly she confused actually, ga tau harus apain aku), jadi ketua neuro dan bener-bener bikin kapok jadi ketua (cuma orang kurang kerjaan yang mau volunteer jadi ketua di sini), melewati paket 3 koas yang melelahkan dan qu sampe sekarang benci paket 3 tsb, dan, stase luar di teling (I'm talking about both pedi and ikkom lol). yang bener-bener. bikin aku sadar bahwa hidup itu keras. banget. tapi. kudu. SURVIVE. jangan. kalah. ama. keadaan.


Aku sadar hidup ini indah. Jika kita menjalaninya dengan pikiran yang tenang, hati yang gembira (for me it's hard coz I'm easily upset for every little thing a.k.a oversensitive but yea at least I tried) dan yea. Jangan dibikin ribet lah intinya. I'm more into let everything flow nowadays...


and.....


Aku..... ga tau harus gimana sekarang. Lagi batuk-batuk dan gaens bangets. Hope I'll get better soon.

Valentine's Day

Happy Val's Day

I personally don't celebrate this kind of day coz I'm single for a decade now.

Like, the only memorable thing about Val's Day that I remembered was I ate all of the 10 chocolate bars that I bought by MYSELF. I was planning to give em to my friends and lovers but since I didn't have both (til now) so yea. Those dark era kinda time.


Sooooooooooooooo what am I supossed to write in this post?

Honestly I have no idea. Today is the graduation of my batch, which makes me feel more, yea.

But I'm still trying to reach the finish line. Even tho it's hard. like, it's fun, but, it. is. really. hard.



I'm going to eat indomie goreng to celebrate Valentine's day. Bye!

2019 ganti birman

SELAMAT TAHUN BARU 2019 YO FELLAZZ!!

Untuk pertama kalinya dalam hidupku,

Aku GA BIKIN RESOLUSI TAHUN BARU.


WHY?

BCOZ IT SUX

I MEANT, AKU PASTI GA BAKAL WUJUDIN

SO, RATHER THAN BE UPSET LATER IN THE END OF THE YEAR, I PREFER TO NOT MAKING ANY



Aku mau cerita how I spent the 00:00


Aku jaga malam tanggal 31 Desember 2018 di UGD kandungan, dari aku balik mandi jam 20ish, aman tentram dan damai. Kami pun nongkrong di depan ruang VK (Verlos Kamer a.k.a Ruang Bersalin Nomal) sambil makan-makan malabar, foto-foto, ketawa-ketawa, tukar kado, nonton Gempita 2019 di SCTV, cerita-cerita


and then............


jam 23.45, 2 PASIEN BARU DATANG.


JADI... JAM 00:00, AKU LAGI PERSIAPAN BUAT BAKAR-BAKAR, BUKAN BAKAR KEMBANG API, TAPI BAKAR URIN


But it's really fun tho. I love it!


Jam 2an, kami pun bakar kembang api sambil pepotoan di balkon belakang lantai 2. Mine was a mess, but gathering with girlfriends doin' a little fun thing is fun.


And I spent most of the day sleeping because I'm too exhausting. Typical introvert.


Hope you guys enjoyed your new day, gbye!